New number, new thought, new me.

June 2, 2017

Last week was my 26th birthday and everyone kept saying to me, “oh you’re so young”.  I couldn’t help but feel as if they were only saying this to me because they thought I felt bad about getting a year older.  Contrary to that though, I think of my age the same I do my weight.  It’s just a number.  I’m now 26 and 150 pounds, that’s who I am but people’s thought “of my thoughts of myself” made me question the life I’ve been living.

     Since I’m a very social girl and single, I’ve been going downtown a lot.  That’s mainly to meet people for opportunities, whether it be for my career, love life, or just friendship but that it’s turned into a lot of social drinking.  While I have been making some crazy fun memories these past three years, with the alcohol consumption has also come a lot of self-doubt and weight gain.  I like to say I live by sayings and it’s definitely true, “when you look good, you feel good” so when I was introduced to a new gym in Mauldin, I knew I had to jump on the opportunity to get back in shape.  That alone wasn’t going to change those thoughts of myself though.

     At the same time I started going to the gym, I started going to Light Rx Face and Body, which is a business that specializes in contouring your body by using heat waves.  So for seven weeks now I’ve been working out four days a week at TriFit Barbell in Mauldin and once a week, I do a treatment at Light Rx.  Very reluctantly, I decided to take a before photo but because of the results I was feeling, I was very excited to take the now seven week progression photo.  The problem is, when I put the before photo beside the evolution photo, I couldn’t tell a difference.

     As I sat in front of my computer comparing the two images, I was a bit frustrated.  I’ve been grindin’ HARD at TriFit.  I mean geez louise, ten minutes into the workout I start pouring sweat so I know the workouts WORK and there was one week I added a certain treatment into my Treat to Complete plan at Light Rx where I instantly lost two inches in EACH of my thighs.  Obviously then, the results in the pictures should be glaring me in the face but crazy enough, I thought the before picture looked better than my seven week one.  I wanted to delete the ‘now picture’ ASAP but one of my co-workers, who also is one of my best friends pointed out where he saw differences in my body.  Why wasn’t I seeing it?

     Later when I was alone, I stared at the images for a long time and then I was reminded of my worst personality trait… I am my harshest critic.  I was beating myself up for not seeing results in the pictures but for the past seven weeks, I have been nothing but proud of myself.  I’ve been busting it at TriFit each week, showing up at Light Rx for my treatments, and last week I even started the Healthletic meal prep service!  Unfortunately we live in a superficial society and it’s disheartening to think that my brain was derailing all the progress I had made because of a photo.  My hard work and effort has done nothing but fill my heart with confidence and I’ll be danged if I let a measly picture bring all that down! 

     Everything I say through my blogs is in hope that I can help you.  Please know, I am the black pot and you, the kettle so I hope from here on out, you and I both will never let a picture determine our happiness.  If anything, this realization is going to make me push harder to have the body I desire and as a birthday present to myself, I’ve decided, I’m cutting out the drinking.  If I lose friends over it or people don’t think I’m funny anymore, whatever.  This is my life and the confidence I have when I walk out of TriFit or Light Rx are the feelings I want forever.  A picture might be worth a thousand words but as Hellen Keller once said, “the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart”. 

PS- If you ever want to work out with me at TriFit, they have a boot camp every Saturday at 10am.  Tell them I sent you and your workout will be on me. Also, Light Rx has the slogan, Confidence is Beautiful and they have done nothing but restore that in my soul.  You can actually go in for a free consultation and they might not give you a treatment on me, but they can change your body if you want it bad enough.  Here’s their link: http://www.lightrx.com/greenville

PSS- The girl in the picture with me is my best friend from high school, Marlee Rhodes.  We ran together and she just competed in the Boston Marathon!  She is a great encourager and we just worked out together last night while she let me vent all about this. I love you, Marlee!